Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Taking Risks

This is the first time na me nagconfess sakin LMAO
Anonng gagawin ko? ahaha now i know, medyo awkward din pala minsan sa babae kapag nagtapat ka ng feelings mo out of no where. I mean OUT OF NO WHERE.


I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel.
Yeah natuwa ako. Not that much. I already built a wall. haha May fortress na ko. Try to destroy it.
That's the reason why uncertain feelings ko. I am cautious. I know that when you love, give all that you can give. Wag ka ng magtira. But this is a very very special and complicated case. HAHA


Pinalagpas ko first time na mambasted ng babae, WOW sayang hindi ko nafeel ung feeling ng nambasted sakin LOL Of course, hindi kita babastedin. I will give you a chance. Na met na naman mga conditions ko na ibinigay ko, sinet ko.


I said to someone na Never kita liligawan. Kung gusto mo ko. Ikaw lumapit. Wag kang umasana ako lalapit sayo at sasabihing, pwede pa ba tayo? And it happened, ikaw lumapit at ikaw naghahabol.
Hindi na ko maglalabas ng pera, as much as possible KKB tayo, better sagot mo :))
Pero kung tayo na, ibang usapan na yan. ikaw manlilibre lol. ako sasagot sayo eh, hindi ako yung sasagutin mo. haha para akong gago.


Ayoko padala sa cheezzy at mushy words mo, ayoko! May phobia na ako dyan. Pero haha i like yung sinabi mo napinalalampas ko lagi yung isang ikaw. 
At syempre, naasar naman ako. haha matagal mo na pala akong gusto. Bakit mo pa ko pinagpalit sa iba, not once but so many times. Tas, now, out of ewan, aamin ka na matagal mo na kong gusto, takot ka lang sa isang serious relationship.


Haha maybe that is the reason why wala pa ko, i appear, i look like looking or a person na pangmatagalan. haha not for play. well now am playing. Trying to play and mastering it. lol am late, pero i can cope.


You said, you want to be my everything. Prove it. Sabihin mong tayo na kapag tinanong kita kapag nagkita na tayo.
I may appear mad. defense mechanism lang siguro.
Ayoko na masaktan. definitely not by you, again. Kaya sorry if super straight to the point ako sayo ng sinabi kong baka kapag may nakita ka na namang iba, you'll left me hanging. You said NEVER again, well prove it.


Nagdiminish nanaramdaman ko sayo, ibalik mo :)) haha kung kaya.


Gusto mo na ba talagang magcommit o namimiss mo lang ako?


Naalarma ang friends mo sa ballita at akala ko alam nila ang mga ginagawa mo. They want to have a conference with me. lol Papatigilin ata ako. haha bahala na.


Lets see kung anong patutunguhan ng kagaguhang ito na naway hindi maging forever gaguhan.


I will be cautious. I am taking the risk, pero this time i will be smarter. I'll dump and hurt you first before you do the same to me for the nth time.


hay, makapag-aral na nga. takot lang ako siguro kaya magulo diun ang utak ko.


Note: wala pa ring tatalo sa kalabuan mo. Ano na naman ibig sabihin nito? hahaha



"Partner? no. Boyfriend? no. Suitor? no.
Then what?

I don't know why there is a feeling of emptiness in me. I have everyone by my side. Is there something or someone I left behind? Maybe.

The real thing is, there is still this slight of hurt in me that hinders me to love and commit to somebody. But I know, in a while, I'll be this somebody's everything. One thing I am sure of is, I miss you..for real! " 

You want to be my everything. Yet, no boyfriend, no partner? hahaha anong set-up to? Just like the old times? hay na ko. 

I asked you: So paano, tayo na? 
Let's see kung ano ibig sabihin ng magkita muna tayo. It's either ayaw mong maging tayo over the phone or whatever. hay

LABO. Goodnight!

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